It was a great reflection for me when I was attending the last meeting of MMSEL class. Yes, I was one of the speaker for the presentation of my group discussing about aggressive behaviour and violence in the classroom. The first time I read the materials, I was like looking back my past and did Such a deep reflection towards it. I realised that I was one of the victim and also was the perpetrator of aggressive behaviour. There are so many forms of aggressive behaviour and that I learned the number one case Is about bullying. Moreover, aggressive behaviour can also lead to violence and luckily I was never been lead to do such thing even tough I had ever though about doing it. Well, actually since I was in elementary school up until now I am always get bullied with people surrounding me. Yes, it is all about my skin, the dark (but most people say it BLACK) one. When I was a kid, I used to be angry or else I did not want to talk about the person who had teased me so. Sometimes, I'd cry if the bullying was pretty bad and it was ruining my day. However, I am one of the type of person who easily apologised on somebody even s/he had done so many things to make me aplogising them. Yes, it was difficult and neither my teacher nor my parents was helpful enough to make me understand that apologise on somebody was such a nice thing. As the time goes by, I learned a lot. I gain my strength and tried to boost up my spirit. I don't even care with Somebody or a bunch of people teasing me around. As I Know (which I've searched throughout the internet) I am not BLACK, I am not NEGRO and I am not INVISIBLE. They just lack of intelligence to describe and define what those three words to me. Well, I also use the bullying as one of the power in shaping the future of mine and I get So confidence about it. I am gonna use the word 'BLACK'as my stage name and alias. Let them know that they give me such a great name. Now, I don't even care if somebody tease and bully me, I will just say 'Let them talk and imagine my future'. That's how I gain the strength of my mind by times. Yes, it take times but I've learned a lot and I just wanna say thanks for the bullies who have built my power.
However, in many times I realise that I am one of the perpetrator in bullying. Sometimes I realised it and sometimes I am not. It was just slip out of my mouth. The worst is sometimes I don't even feel guilty in doing it and just think that s/he he deserves it. Yeah, I know it is not right and at a time I have ever thought that perhaps Iget bullied because I bully others (Karma stuffs : D). According to the resources I read I just need to maintain my peptalk and do such a lot self- reflection before talk something. Realising that it wouldn't be easy and instead I don't even wanna give any motivation or strength to people that I bullied (exactly the same with my condition). So, before I end this writing, I just wanna gay sometimes yes bullying on somebody could be a joy but we can not further feel what others feel about what we're talking about. Yes, at the moment we can s/ he smiles or laughers with us but we don't see their feelings and DO NOT JUDGE SOMOEBODY FROM THEIR FACIAL EXPRESSION. You ain't him/her.
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