Just called it "Reflect"-ion

 This first week of courses, I just feel unwilling to study. I become sleepy at classes, I become bored to stay and become naughty students that run away from the classes (sometimes). It is not my habit. As human being, I understand that sometimes students will feel like me when they don’t have any motivation to stay at class. I also did not have any motive to stay because I did not find my goals yet. I am a student and I am teacher candidate as well, it is like a big challenge for me to challenge myself first in this beginning semester to set the goals to study and motivate myself before I go to school and motivate them. It will be nonsense if I cannot solve my problem first, and I try to solve their problem. That is why I have to study motivation and management of students.

Years ago, I understood that my extrinsic motivation is bigger than my intrinsic motivation to study. When I reflect my own journey, I always have goals to make people surrounds me proud of having me because I reach the good achievement in academic. That goal is on and on till I get a challenge to study in a town that very far away from my beloved people. Sometimes, the spirit up when having call from them, then getting down again in a minutes. Bored of that kind of motivation, I try to understand me myself and I find another goals in non academic. I believe that intrinsic motivation will works well for me rather than extrinsic. 

But, having crush of the goals before, I getting confuse of life. This time, I cannot set both goals in academic and non-academic together because I am just a human, and I am typically of focus. But makes the academic goals far away like this, makes me feel guilty and now, when I write this reflection, I am trying to accept extrinsic motivation to works as well as my intrinsic motivation. I just need to be more opened and set my new perspective in life.

Hmm, I tell too much about me rather than about the course. But, I hope you will understand that this clear reflection will not write when I did not study about Motivation and Management of Students for Effective Learning. In my opinion study is not only about the contents but relating it to the real world is more important. So, this is what I expect from this course: I am not expecting that this course will makes me become a golden motivator but I just hope this course will teach me how to teach meaningfully and usefully. Because I believe that the lesson will be lively just because of the goals set from the owner of brain.